I wanna erase everything. Delete it. Pretend it never existed. But I can’t. Because it’s a part of me and it’s how I got from there to here. I don’t have shame. Yesterday my husband said “He’s sad about it.” But I don’t think He is. The phrase that was meant to shame me back into…whatever didn’t work. I didn’t feel bad. I don’t think He actually gets sad about things. I mean, if He even exists. I think He’s good with stuff.
Many times, how we respond to people mirrors how we respond to God. I’ve been thinking a lot about relationships between people and how they correlate to our relationship God in terms of trust, love, and even obedience.
We have two choices when met with problems with people – we choose to either respond or react. They may seem like the same thing, but here’s what he’s taught me recently. When we react to someone or something, it’s generally based on the circumstance. It comes from a place of soul-led logic. It finds it’s roots in debate and argument. A response on the other hand, is more personal. It is spirit-led wisdom, rooted in love. There’s more acceptance in a response. There’s less aggression. It doesn’t mean that we agree, but that we are willing to see the personhood in someone, as we wish them to see it in us.
God desires for us to respond to Him, rather than react to the world around us. When we see all the crazy going on around us (circumstances), He wants us to just look up. Keeping our eyes on Jesus no matter what else is going on at our feet is an imperative. Praying that we all keep our eyes on Him and respond to Him as He leads this Fall.
I’ve always been resourceful. When I was a kid, if my mom hadn’t been to the store in a while, I could come up with something yummy to eat for dinner. I would say, “out of nothing, I made something!” I had a certain amount of pride in that skill set. Later in my life, it manifested in me being able to find money when I needed it – often out of thin air! Recently, I was asked to give my biggest strength and my greatest challenge. My mind immediately went to my ability to (almost) create resources. Instead, the word “flexibility” came out – which is also true. As I pondered the quality of resourcefulness, the Lord spoke to me. The impression He made on my heart is that my resourcefulness is provision that I have made for myself. It has confidence in it’s own ability and it believes that my resources never end.
Resourcefulness has a creative aspect to it. The Lord made us in His image; He is The Creator, but He also made us creative. When we take that skill and apply it to our lives without His abundant provision, He will eventually let us run out of provisions to teach us that we are not limitless.
As I’ve repented for thinking so highly of my own creativity and resourcefulness, I’ve also hitched my wagon onto His provision. If I can no longer count on mine, all I’ve got is His. Matthew 6 says that we are not to worry about what we wear or eat or any other kind of provision, for He makes provision for the birds and the flowers. How much more will He provide for us? He doesn’t say to “do” anything, He says to “look” and to “consider”. We are meant to take notice of the provision happening all around us and just KNOW that He will also supply all of our needs according to His riches in Heaven.
And His resources never run dry….